I don’t deserve HIM


If I counted the amount of hours in my lifetime that I have 1. worried about 2. prayed about 3. talked about my future husband/marriage/being pursued/romance,etc. I am fairly sure I would be horrified by the gargantuan number it would be.

All my life I’ve been told I’m a “gem,” a “treasure,” and “worth waiting for.” Some of that encouragement has helped to keep me on the right track, and I am thankful for the people who have guided me in moral standards along the way.

And all my life I’ve gone to church and have been taught and loved by many fine teachers and pastors. For that I am so grateful.

But recently light has been pouring into the dark closets of my heart, exposing me, making me throw my hands over my eyes to hide its hurtful rays. And the TRUTH of the gospel, of who Jesus Christ is and what He did for me has (to my wonderment) surprised me. It’s incredible.

Purity is not what you have not done. Rather, purity is Who has washed you of who you already are. I don’t care if you’ve never even side-hugged a member of the opposite sex, you were born filthy and in need of a Savior.Yes, virginity means never having sex, but virginity does not equal purity. I went to a Christian college, and it shames me to think of how many of us tried to shuffle our tippy toes to the disintegrating edges of that cliff. And even if we refrained in actions…what about our eyes and minds?

I greatly look forward to the day I wear a pretty white dress and become united with my warrior partner for the Kingdom. But what I’m learning is that the white dress does not simply represent my righteousness, but the righteousness of Christ covering me. Yes, of course it’s wonderful to wait and have done “it” the way God desires. I’ve seen up close and personal the chaos and despair sexual sin causes. But even my righteousness is like a dirty, bloody tampon. Yep, that’s right. It’s what the Bible says. filthy [menstrual] rags. Isaiah 64:6.

And even if that sweet day of my wedding never happens, I have already been relentlessly pursued and loved by the God of the universe who knows the nastiest, wickedest parts about me.

He loves me. always. I am the bride of Christ.
I don’t deserve Him.
HE is the gem.

Keep the Faith,
Audrey Ann


battle cries…

Gospel, Jesus
David Platt: Why “Accepting Jesus Into Your Heart” Is Superstitious and Unbiblical
Matt Chandler: Jesus Wants the Rose
Both of these clips encouraged my heart, as I’ve been overwhelmed 
with the truth about the gospel of Jesus Christ. Remember, JESUS WANTS THE ROSE!
Keep the Faith,
Audrey Ann

To eat "chikin" or not to eat "chikin," that is today’s question

Chick-Fil-A, homosexuality, Jesus

If you’ve logged into facebook even once or twice this past week, you’ve been barraged with adds about Chick-Fil-A Day, standing up for biblical marriage, and eating more “chikin.” And today (THE day)…it seems that everyone has some sort of opinion to share.

Honestly, it’s awesome that everyone is all “roweled” up. In the end, that is truly what this controversy is about. Sure, the owner of the restaurant was asked his beliefs on marriage, and he gave his answer. But this controversy is not really about “anti homosexuals”…or “hate”…it’s about freedom…freedom to believe what you want, build a business based on those beliefs, and SAY, RANT, or SHOUT what you believe, and not fear bullying from the powers that be. This is about the first amendment. This is about freedom of speech. This is about capitalism. And there are so many who have given their very lives for those ideals, so I will not be afraid to eat a chicken sandwich (or salad in my case) supporting them in some small way.

But what really bothers me are statements from (well-meaning, I’m sure) friends who make statements about supporters of Chick-Fil-A being “insensitive” or lacking “love.”

At first I wondered if they were right. Maybe this is whole campaign is stupid. I mean, it is correct that truth should still be presented in the right way.

However, it is never “insensitive” to state the truth. And it is never “sensitive” or somehow spiritually more elite to hush those who do have something to say about the truth. “Well, buying that chicken sandwich isn’t helping any homosexuals come to know Jesus!” they might argue. Perhaps it is not, but neither is quieting someone declaring the truth. Chick-Fil-A never said they hated those who practice homosexuality.

Except for Jesus Christ in my life, I am EVERY BIT as dirty. EVERY BIT as desperate before the throne of grace. EVERY BIT as needy. And I am capable of any sin. any. But in light of His glorious grace, oh, can’t we see that if we have the truth, we must not stay silent! Yes, speak the truth in love, but don’t let “sensitivity” silence you, because it’s not “sensitive” to quietly watch as people walk to hell. Don’t mask passivity with alleged kindness. It’s not a favor.

Keep the faith,
Audrey Ann